screw this.

I always thought best friends meant "forever" not "until someone better comes along." I just miss being your best friend, I miss being your friend period. I really wish we could start over, but you're too consumed with being "popular." It's sad really. You just ditch your best friend since knee high for "someone better."

life's a bitch

I want you to talk to me again, i miss you, i cant believe youre gone because i didnt feel the same way as one of your friends.. i wish we were still bestfriends but i guess i was never that to you, you'd rather have a guy best friend. and i just didnt cut it.

woopsies.

So I sorta, kinda, maybe like you more than I had originally planned.

lol

I miss being your friend so damn much. I'm too proud to admit it. I hate just walking past you with just a nod of acknowledgment. I want you to tell me you miss me too!

it's simple.

Guys drink to forget about girls & girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor & when girls are in love they become pretty. Guys can forget but can’t forgive, girls can forgive but can’t forget. Guys break up when they feel love from another girl, girls break up when they feel separation from their man. Guys feel curiosity from all girls & girls feel curiosity towards guys who have feelings towards them. When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl. And when girls are heartbroken they try to find characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love, & girls wish to be his last.

HAHA

I hate being alone so much I almost thought about being your friend again, but that would make the respect I have for myself plummet. So that's a no go. Someday you'll get a reality check. I'll be waiting for that laugh.

just listen.

Sometimes when I really need someone to talk to. They don't listen, they care too much about their own problems.

hello.

I love you more then I've ever loved anyone, and as a friend I trust you with my life. But if we were to actually be together, I wouldn't be able to trust you for a single fucking second.

haha..

I think I am afraid of relationships, or guys. If it seems that a guy actually starts flirting with me, i freak out & avoid them. Even if i think they're cute. The guys I like never like me. I think I won't have a boyfriend in high school.

mistake

I confessed to you that I had a crush on you when I first met you, but only for a short while. I lied. I've been in love with you since. I've tried so hard to replace you, but honestly I could never leave you because you've been my best friend for the longest time. I swear, we'd be perfect together. You'd be able to see it if you just opened your eyes for once instead of being so shallow.

CAUSE.

You say you want to stop partying but you're out right now, getting drunk off your ass. Stay true to yourself and stick to your words. I'm your friend and I care about you a lot but it looks like you're not even trying to stop.

FUCKINGSHIT.

Yeah, I did it. I fell for the one person I can't have. What am I going to do?

boredhoe

"Flirting is a habit for those who are single. It's their way of saying I'm free. But for those who are committed, it's their way of saying I'm bored."

I don’t think anyone knows what I’m going through right now. It’s the most hardest thing I have ever done in my life. And the thing is, my friends have no clue. That’s exactly why I haven’t been social lately. I don’t want to tell them. I can’t tell them. I just hope they’ll still accept me for who I am…

jealousy gets to me.

Yeah, fine I'll admit I'm jealous.

I'm jealous that other people can make you smile. And I get even more jealous when they can make you smile in a different way than I make you.

TAE YANG. (drools)

be mine. be mine. be mine. you hot peice of korean skin!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vN65zz1EZrA

wondering.

Do you ever wish you could die, but be alive at your funeral. Just to see who would be there. Just to see who would cry.

waste.

everyone thinks of me as this strong, independent woman who will never let a man get her down and i willingly classify myself under that persona...on the outside, at least. but on the inside...well, you fucking tore me apart. there is not one bit of me that feels as strong, alive, faithful, or whole as i seem. not one fucking bit. and it's all because of you.

ahhwell.

It hurt a lot when I realized that I was left out of the loop by my friends when I was trynna get focus, like I didn't matter to them.

good joke

When black people started wearing their pants down low, white people called it ‘saggin’. Spell saggin backwards. Sneaky ass white people!!

LO fucking L.

cuhrazy.

It drives me crazy how, you can just flirt with me and fill my head with all those sweet little nothings. Yet still be with her.

Is it too much to ask?

“I want a boy who will tell me when I’m being stupid. Who won’t baby me with his words. A boy who will still give time to his friends. A boy who will tell me ‘No’. He will watch stupid movies with me, but makes me watch his favorites also. A boy who’s willing to drop everything to be with me, but knows when to let it be. A boy who will know he’s important to me, but won’t mind when I change my plans to help someone out. I want a boy who’s enjoyable to look at, he doesn’t have to be gorgeous. I just want someone who I can pay attention to. A boy who will randomly bring me food, cause he knows I love to eat. A boy who can make jokes about me, a boy that I can laugh with. Someone who wont mind when I even embarrass myself. A boy who will buy me something, something I would actually want, none of that jewelry crap. Someone who doesn’t do everything I ask but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there. Someone who I don’t feel threatened by. A boy who has other friends that are girls, but I can trust him with them. A boy who will know when to leave me alone when I have my stupid fits. A boy who I can just sit with. I don’t need the whole fairytale deal; I just want to feel comfortable.”

before

Reading our old msn conversations are much more interesting than fanatics. It gives me hope that one day we'll have a picture perfect romance for our own storyline.

Damn..

I have friends. In fact, I have so many of them. I have had and have best friends. But none of them seem to treat me one. I just want a friend, a friend who will accept me for my flaws and will be TRUE to me as I will be with them. Even just one.

FUCKLESS

If you're skinny, people will call you anorexic. If you're intelligent, people will call you a smartass. If you are pretty, people will call you fake. No matter what, people will always find something wrong with you. The trick? Just don't give a fuck.

I'm never going to be able to have a healthy, successful, romantic relationship with anyone. It is never going to happen because I'm not willing to put out for just anyone. When did having standards count against you?

TRUUE

“Because you got fucked over before, you don’t wanna get fucked over again. Because you don’t wanna feel the hurt again, you feel like every single guy is the same. Because you don’t want to go through pain and take a risk, that’s why you’re not going for what you want. You’re just sitting back, and watching the person you like, like someone else”

TELL ME THIS:

why do girls always run from the guys who try to make them happy, but fight for the ones who' make them cry ?

can't wait.

Who doesn't love snow?
Ugh... COME TO ME.

your loss.

I think you made a big mistake. And one day you’ll see me at some party or social event with my new boy and you’ll regret giving up more than anything. At least, that’s what I think.

yo, guess what?

I give up. okay? you win. I don’t want to compete. I never wanted to compete about who’s happier or who’s better off. I give up on trying to be nice and trying to be bestfriends again. i don’t want to be nice. it’s hard being nice. I don’t want to be friends if it’s going to be this hard. it’s hard watching you self-destruct. it makes me feel like the person I liked died somewhere in between. I don’t want to be a part of your life anymore. maybe then you would stop your shit and see what you’re doing to yourself.

This is probably not the place for this, because I’m writing this to tell you that I’m finally over you. So you don’t have to be afraid anymore and we can be best friends again. Right? I’m sorry I went batshit crazy when you turned me down.

Jeleel.

fuck all o' y'all

today, everyone pissed me the fuck off. it was like they all gathered to plan to ruin my life. like fuck off, PLEASE. I don't need anymore bullshit.

used2be

You were my best friend and I used to tell you everything...

my secret.

1.) Will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I'm sixty four

I found out what love meant when I saw my recovering grandmother [heart bypass] with my grandfather.

I have never been in love. And it’s okay. I’m only 15. Some of my friends -and a lot of people that I have heard of in school are making an ass out of themselves by stalking and harassing [via flirting] some random guy they had just -or have never- met.

I’m happy I’m not like that.

I hope everybody gets the chance to know what love really means, i really do. Even the biggest bitch in our school deserves to be loved by someone, not by though. But maybe someone that will love her and change her, hopefully.

It just pissess me off when people associate love with just looks, one night stands, fame and very fictional concepts. I believe that love is eternal. I don’t mean to make it sounds like you have to wait 50 years. But it’s something that you have to wait for, it doesn’t happen overnight, it’s not a fling. …it’s something I have yet to understand, learn and feel. It’s something I don’t get because I’m still too young.

And it’s okay, more than okay.

yum.

These kicks are fucking sexy. But @ ze same time, they look schupid.

ALLELUHIA

BUZZER BEATER @ HOME GAME VS MCLUHAN.
highlight of the week!

good job, jeleel.

my story

I woke up, drifting back to that unforgettable summer.
It was the summer when life began. The summer I turned 15.
Our relationship was everything it should have been almost as if our time together had been written for a novel. We came together through friends of ours, as do most typical high school relationships. We grew closer and closer during the school year, spending so much time together on weeknights playing ball outside the school. It was on the way home from his house one Thursday in August that I realized I was falling for him. Every sign showed love. I could hardly sit still in class just anticipating the next time i would see him.

Being with him changed my soul (barf). I shared everything with him, even things I kept from my family and my other bestfriends. Unfortunately, all good things must come to an end. He didn't feel the same way. I wished I could return to the long summer nights we had spent together.

But I realized he was just a guy. A special guy.
*get over him jeleel, it's been 2 years*

afterthought

Yet regardless of whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them... it matters not. Because once they come into your life, whatever they are to the world, they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls, and you say a million things without a trace of a sound you know what your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of their very hearts.
We love them for a million reasons. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

meet me halfway

Hey boy, wassup, it used to, it used to be just me and you.

honestly...

I want to be someone's last call of the night & their first thought in the morning.

I want those 5 hour conversations that end in 'no you hang up first'.

I want the heart racing, palm sweaty, 'what's gonna happen next' moments.

I want the hugs that you never want to let go of & the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest.

But most importantly, I just want to know someone considers me theirs.

what. a. day.

we had that shit conversation on msn.. again.

you really think everything is about you huh!
"soak it up. breath it in. exhale the fake shit." yeah i know your name is written all over it. but stilllllllllll. "i just wanna be friends" ha. you think you can fool me? i ain't going that road again.. sorry. don't tell me you already forgot what you did to me last summer. it literally changed my point of view. it's my fault, too. I was completly unware of where i was heading.

but, you somehow influenced me to become a better person.

someone's else than me

You may not be her first, her last, or her only.
She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters, right? She's not perfect - neither are you, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

good luck..

bullshit

Shit, I'm a girl of pride. You don't do shit like that!
You don't just pick up and leave, and leave me sick like that!
You don't throw away what we had just like that.

"I was just fuckin' them girls, I was gon' get right back"

They say: "You can't turn a bad girl good,
But once a good girl's gone bad, she's gone forever".

let's bypass the bullshit and move on.

I had a best friend.. from 9th grade through 10th grade.

We were practically.. inseparable, for 1 year.

Then I changed.

But I will remember you and all of the things that we've gone through..

it's been awhile.

yesterday, wow.

both senior and junior ball squad defeated mt. amazing. so whoever thought we'd get slapped by mt, kiss our asses. cos we won. then hm, emma arielle roldan sillar arvin aljouh emre marlene and francis came over to my house. how lovely. NOT. cos i had to clean up their shit after :( time passed then before we knew it, it was, 7:30pm. faggots had to leave. now it was down to arielle emma roldan emre and i. we had real serious talks. lmao. the last people who left were, emre and marlene. i was so drained. i slept @ 11. then woke up realizing i forgot.. lost.. my jersey somewhere. so i texted emma, hoping she has it. and she does <3. style="font-size:78%;">

p.s
there emma, i finally updated my blog, just for you.

jels

burn

After the whole yadda yadda incident. I was walking and I thought,
“Why did I act like this?”

It’s amazing, some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence, and it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. It changes everything, nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they don’t know it.

your not the guy I thought you would be. your like .. one of the most amazing people ever, but your a jerk. I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesn’t deserve it, because they are all you have… because any attention is better than no attention.

okayy

Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you.

fu.

the only person who can make me smile, made me cry.

you have that stupid affect on me, to want to hate you but just can't. what I've learned from you is something. and that something is to never let someone turn you into nothing. you always hafta love yourself first. Im not saying my feelings are gone, i just got smart and tried to move on. the day you finally decide to love me will be the day I have given up on chasing you.

You better hope you don't regret this.

jeleel

new shoes

Hey baby
You seen a ghost? this ain't yo lady
This is the chick that you held back now
All of the things you've said were crazy
I checked out my list and I feel good about it
I got the new haircut
The one that you said wouldn't look no good
Took that job you said I could not get
Wore that dress you said I'd never fit in

ain't jealous..

don't get jealous, don't get jealous, don't get jealous. im jealous.

I may feel as relaxed as ever, yet others seem to be overly anxious now -- and their anxiety can rub off on me. remembering that, I don't have to adjust my emotions to match someone else's just because I care. It's essential, though, to know what I want instead of trying to please an impossible person or allowing myself to be bullied. im fighting for this boy, on a battle field of love. but im just a face you never notice. and im, just trynna be honest with myself, with you, with the world. and you might think, that im a fool for falling over you. you know that im on your side.

jeleel

dear shooter

i don't fucken care what you think, i know i look good.

"change your fucken tights!" haha funny, coming from a guy who actually has no swag and needs work on their face. HOOOOKAY! I wanted to fucken cut you up and murder you. you're lucky i didn't. i kept my cool. "i didnt know it would hurt you like that." okay pip face, when i say, "shut the fuck up, fuck you!" over 10 times for over an hour.. it means im fucken pissed. thought you were smart, but your dumb as a fucken imigrant. idk what your girl sees in you, you're a motherfucker. tough luck, don't even bother apologizing cos i could hold a grudge on someone for soooo long.

get offffffffffff my fucken dick, like shoot.

jeleel

raw shit pt.2

you said you had a photographic memory, but apparently, you forgot that honesty begins by being real with yourself and the ones you claim you love. the truth cannot be hidden. what’s clouded in darkness will always come to light, my love you should have known that. claiming you saw my light so clearly and brightly. i guess shit happens, i just wish it wasn’t me. and I guess it’s so much better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all. i know that’s some easy shit to say, but I’m still going to try and live by it. i’m still going to put my faith to rest in it. i will sleep on dry pillows now. in a bed big enough to love myself in. i will awake these coming mornings with my eyes dry and shining full of the knowledge. i am priceless. and worth nothing but honesty. i will remove the scarlet letter from my chest and take the hand of the little girl I used to be and say I’m sorry to her, i’m sorry for cheating you out of the joy you have always deserved. and I will wait for a man to come along that can give me the truth of how much he can really love me.

HOLLA.

raw shit pt.1

we are not your mothers, you have been weaned from the breast of a woman for years yet you come to us, wounded and half filled with promises you can only keep half the time trying to suckle our sense of self dry. we have become much too accustomed to empty beds and damp pillows become much too accustomed to waiting for our empty beds to be weighted down with the bodies of men heavy with the scent and the hands of other women. and we, simply wanting to be loved and to love ourselves unconditionally. simply wanting the truth of whether you can really love us or not play Hester Prin, place scarlet letters on our chests, become adulteresses, cheating ourselves out of what we truly deserve, willing to settle for less, willing to act like a little less than a goddess, willing to sleep with the enemy. men too scared to stop acting like boys. thinking we can love away their scars so we take the lashes of the insecurities that they pour on us and lick our wounds in quiet mourning for the little girls we loose by the minute.

he ain't my "world"

im gonna go on in life and lie like im happy, it seems to fool everyone.

I'm trying so hard not to care but you're happy now and it's not fair. and I can deny that this whole thing's not happening. but to hold it inside.. it's killing me. just when I thought that I was getting strong, I see you with her - I was wrong. thinkin we would be lovers, but you don't look at me that way. as much as I hate to admit this, but I think we should just leave each other alone, so I won't see right through your games and shit. but i know, im still going to live by it, each and every fuckin day.

even though you're the world's biggest asshole, im still down.

jeleel

africa

everything seemed unreal between you and me
-
my day was like any other day. unlucky. basketball during lunch was so damn bait. "yo jeleel, post up on him" with a big ass smile. thanks roldan. then right after ta check in, "yo jeleel wait for me" with just a little hint of smile. that made me smile, just a lil bit. then ball practice, i fucken sucked for 2 days now. i needa get myself together or else i won't earn the title of "captain." FDW. then um, finally, cedric wanted me to be in their team for sac bbq tournament. "LOL wanna be in our team?" okay okay, that made me feel nice. but besides that, im positioned, small forward. yay.

jeleel

you're going to regret it, someday

our situation ain't right..
-
get real, who do you think you're trying to play with? i never thought you would be like this. then again, i dont blame you.. at all. you're just being, you. i'd hate to see if you didn't care. i know i know you would you find some lame excuse to never be true. always want to be one of the guys. real talks, im so sick of worrying.. about you. you're being so shallow. you are shallow, im sorry. but it's better to leave you. i can trip and let you go like that. and everything we ever were, its gone and its done. there's nothing we can do to be like the way we are before. so sad that you don't know the good things from the bad. thought you would love me if i was skinnuh, but you know you should love me for my innuh. i geuss shit happens, i just wish it wasn't me.

'guys our age are feeling all nice about themselves, thinking that they can get at player status. WHEN they dont even know how stupid that is ..' - KendraHui

jeleel

now I know

I wish you were invisible. Cos when you're visible, i'm miserable.

my day was fine till I heard from you.. "(...) keeps asking me if you've talked about him recently" that kept my hopes up real high. but then I had to listen to my girl when she said, "don't get your hopes up too high, hes stupid" and it's true. "cos I don't want her to get hurt" like wdf! it's kind of a little too late for that now. "your just a shallow asshole tht wont give one girl a chance" my girl was right. you can't like me, your bestfriend, but you like your other bestfriend cos why? cos she's way hotter right? bullshit. my girl's right. im the girl whose chill with all the guys, who doesnt talk shit about her friends.. but she talks shit about everyone.. just for the fun if it. i was there first. im the original and shes just a duplicate.. you're just too blind to see. i've been chopped and screwed by my bestfriend. oh wait, I can't call him that anymore..

I wish you were gone from here
and not decide to re-appear.
jeleel

mother, mother crew.

Imma be popping that bubbly, cool and living that good life.

I think I accomplished nuff things today. Handed some units in.
Finally took a shot over Roldan, how sad. Now this man's saying
he wasn't playing for real. Haha whatta lie. Thennnn, last ball
try outs. I got asked to play for the seniors.. but I wanted to atleast
be part of the juniors, especially if I be captain. Oh lawwwd. After,
the day was almost done. Best part was when Lester, Roldan, Emma,
and I were having reaaaaal talks. But Lester left, so it was down to the
3 of us. We talked and chilled for 2 hours. And I literally meant, chill.

I have done more than I can say.
jeleel

corny shit

I wanna tell you all these things that I can't.
See, I wanna tell you, but the problem is, you don't care..

I know, its fucked, I hate the fact that we're just friends.
I wanna risk it, but is it worth to lose a best friend?
like c'mon, do I really wanna go through this again?

But the times I was always down, you would always do something stupid to make me smile. do I even cross your mind? is it even worth it spending this much of my time? I just don't know if there will ever be an us.

"yeah, well, I wanna tell you this from the bottom of my heart. That you made me feel like this, even from the start. I should never wait for a chance and I should take my risks cos it's worth a try. There even might be something to this. I might be lucky enough to get some love from you. Yeah, all of these dream of days when you would be my boo. I can't explain the feelings, I geuss it's head over toes 8) haha no, I know it's head over heels. Got me hoping that one day you would know how I really feel. Im hoping all of these moments would one day turn out real."

none

nothing special, honnnnnestly.

just a normal fucken day. it'd actually be cool if a miracle happened and you liked me back. whatever, i ain't that lucky. ha.

first ball practice, it was ok.
then had a six minute serious talk with my bffl, Roldan Bartilet.
haha it was so serious, we were both talking about problems in our lives.

behemoth

wonderland with my girls yesterday: roma, marlene, and kait.
arielle and emma were mia.

the park was closed for some special event. but luckily, we were in that special event. i also got 6 free tickets thats why i took my gyals with me. haha first ride was the fly. it was cooool. the last ride of the day was, mine buster. wood coasters are the bomb.

ass excuses

im goin' crazy. this is not a lie.

anothhhhhhhher worthless day. you still don't know, i think.
even if I explained to you every single thing, i know my explanation
won't feel like a lie in any way, boy.

I wonder what I could do that would have any hope of making a difference to you.

just.... don't act stupid when you do find out.

year

it doesn't take a genius to see what we got. you're just so clueless.

it's been a year that I had a thing for you, (barf). no lies boy. just give me some damn tiny tiny portion of hope so that I could smile. the way you look at the better looking ones, made me not sure I had ability to smile anymore. sucks that I couldn't do anything else but stare.

don't worry boy, I ain't whipped.
i've just waited far too long..

- kid jels

"sweat"

today was burning hot.

he was still the same. has no clue, at all. well, not that I know of.
"can I borrow your shirt to wipe my sweat" oh Lord, I lost my concentration on my
side of the disagreement when he said that. haha even though it was kind of gross
that I had to wear a wet uniform the rest of the day.. it was fine. I just did the
best with what I had never quite being his girl .

people say you should be happy with what you got and not complain about every little thing..

- jeleel

sKOOL

first day of school


Real glad to see my friends, well some. Real great to see him too. He smiled at me.
Tried as hard as I could to resist, I had to smile back. Just a tiny smile, no biggy.

twisted

Yesterday was not a good day. Twisted my ankle twice. And my furball ran away :(

Well forget yesterday, today's gonna be a good day. I hope.
Church with the famo and shoe shopping. Yeah, sounds like fun.
My ankle's still twisted -.- getting nowhere near better.

- jeleel
p.s come home salem.

ay boy

I know your smile like the back of my hand. You probably never knew, I feel this way..

I wanna be the first thing on your mind in the morning. The one who know's it's you when you're calling. The girl who dries your tears when they're fallin. I wanna know you like that.

I wanna be the one you run to when things get crazy. The only girl you call your "baby." The one whose got your back. I wanna know you like that. Don't leave me hear on the edge of my dream.


tried to show you how I feel,
but the words got in the way.

bestfriend

Sweetest thing. Two of my best friends in the world called all the way from Chi-Town. Haha, I wanna see his phone bill next. From the beginning to the end, they've always been here right beside me.

Through the good times and the bad ones, whether I lose or if I win, I know one thing that never changes and they'll always be my best friend. (barf)

- jelz

sooner than later

You forgot to call me on my birthday. You swear im the last thing on your mind. There's nothing you can do to fix it. Somehow I still want you by my side.

We got this love connection, can't explain it. You give me chills up and down my spine. Hoping you could just step your game up. Boy make me yours, let's stop wasting time. So can you do me a favor? Can you pull it together? Make it sooner than later? We won't be here forever. And we'll realize we've waited too long. Let's make this official.

We've been going at this for a while, you're the one for me it's plain to see. You tell me you can't find nobody better. Yet, I just feel like another homie.

jeleel

t-sweezy

No I ain't got a gun, no I never really been in a club. Still live with my parents, but im still a thug. Im so gangster you can find me baking cookies at night. You out clubbing? But I just made caramel delight.

I had a dream last night. I had high top nikes. Diamonds in my mouth and diamonds in my mic. By the time I woke I was singing. Im on a boat, whoah.

- t-swift

mint

Now school's around the corner and summer's almost done. My mind has enough room to feel both emotions intensely at the same time. Only went to 3 jams this summer. Cos im t-t-totally not a party girl. haha. My very own surprise birthday party(check), Kaitlin's pool party (check), and Kang's jam (check). How sad.

But im still a G yo. I'm so gangster you can find me baking cookies at night.

HOLLA.

ain't me

Yesterday told myself that I would do it alone. Don't never let nobody mess up my flow, I'm good wit me. Not sayin love ain't nothin I aint felt before. Now I'm bugging waiting here on your call.

This where your girl start acting crazy. This is what ya hear on the radio.
This is why I'm stressin, creepin, stalking, steady checkin who you talkin' to
I really didn't get it before.

This ain't me, damn you got me going outta control. I can't believe I'm really one of those hoes, no it couldn't be. And no way could I be really catching feelings. It's like I can't imagine being solo, no I'm good with me.

When you look at me, tell me what do you see.
I'll wipe off my make up, take off my pretty clothes, I'll let my hair down. Yeah, I can be natural
Stand here vulnerable, proud as hell, so you know what i'm talking about.
It's time for me to confess, show you what i'm about. There'll be no more fronting baby
cause the real is coming out.

Take you on this little journey, so you know how we get down.

jelz

corazon

Sometimes I just don't get it and I don't know why. My heart's all up in it and it still don't fly.

Sometimes I'm feeling so low when I gotta maintain. Nine out of ten run the same game. But I know I'm not alone, these days are going to be gone.

He acts like my man but he got girls on the side. Pain makes me hide, but the truth don't lie.

life's a game but it's not fair.

Don't wait until it's too late. And that's exactly what I'm doing.

I know it'll burn like poison in my mouth to finally admit I had a thing for him. He pisses me off all the time. I wanted to be angry with him but he was making it hard. It was like he was throwing my own words back at me just scrambled up.
I love someone I shouldn't.

Maybe the planet had a star turning backward. Maybe that would explain how everything was the opposite of what I wish would happen. How could I be hoping for what had once seemed like the very worst thing in the world.

i miss ......, I geuss that should piss me off, but I don't care. Didn't seem to have the energy to keep up even that little hint of hope he'd had before.

I was surprised she didn't break into a touchdown dance. I woulda.

Jel

noob

So I finally got this "blogspot". I swear I had my html skills somewhere inside of me. I just don't know where. But whatever, we'll just deal the way it looks for now.